When I first learned of your disappearance last week, I was genuinely worried for you, and I offered up a prayer for your safe return. Given the recent high-profile missing person cases like those of Laci Peterson and Lisa Stebic, I feared that harm had come to someone with whom I had at least a passing familiarity.
Even as evidence mounted in the last few days that pointed in a different direction, a part of me remained hopeful that the puzzling inconsistencies in your story would be resolved. I refrained from posting about the case until I learned the details that were finally made public, and frankly - only a sadist would gloat over seeing the fall of a person of prominence and public esteem.
Yet I have to admit that the news today that you faked your own disappearance did not surprise me. Nor did disclosure of your debts to the Internal Revenue Service of $97,524 for unpaid income taxes in the years 2001, 2002, and 2003 come as a shock, and I cannot help but think that your financial woes are interwoven with what appears to be your mental instability.
By the way - I once owed the IRS over $24,000 from an old business I owned, so I know the fear and self-loathing that accompanies tax troubles. But instead of buying expensive cars and living a lavish lifestyle (nice move, I might add, keeping the Mercedes Benz and the condo in your husband's name, away from the claws of the feds), I invested in $700 clunkers, ate a lot of canned soup, and worked a ton of part-time jobs to pay down my tax debt. Yes, IRS liens suck, but so does jail time, which it appears you will be facing after your cowardly scheme.
Your decision to fabricate a scenario in which two white men and a black woman abducted you at gunpoint and drove around with you for days, however, brings shame on your family, your church, and community. How do you think all those good people feel who gathered at the prayer vigils dedicated to you? How embarassing must this be for your father, Toledo Municipal Court Judge C. Allen McConnell, who publicly humiliated himself by standing by you?
And what about your husband, Bishop Lawrence Hancock, who made public pleas in the media and showed such gratitude when you were found safe on Saturday? Did you ever stop to think about the distress you caused him?
What about the members of the Final Harvest Church, which describes you as "First Lady" to your bishop husband? You have let down the faithful congregation of the church, who steadfastly prayed, supported, and vouched for your integrity.
But enough with the judgmental questions, Karyn. My advice to you is simple: get some help. Negotiate a reasonable repayment schedule with the IRS, live within your means, and seek psychological counseling for the demons with which you seem to be battling.
And first and foremost: take responsibility for your actions, Karyn McConnell-Hancock. People will be willing to forgive you with a sincere and public apology, but if you try to duck out like a weaselly politician from the mess that you created, your reputation will be forever destroyed.